The True Test

Tomorrow is my third time taking my BCBA test. The third time!

I've been thinking about how depressing it is that I can't pass this stinkin' test. How stupid must I be to have to do this for now a third time.

Then I thought, what if I never passed this test? If I never passed this test, I would continue to live, I would continue to have a job and family and friends. I would still be me and I would still be happy.

Then I realized that there is one test that I must pass in life. The test of faith!

So, although I hope I pass this test tomorrow, it will not affect my eternity.

I pray that whenever I am given a true test, a test of faith- that I pass, with flying colors!

Autism

Today the kids were at Special Olympics. I know that with Autism, people struggle with language, social sill and behavior, but when I see the kids at work, I don't see the things that they struggle with, I see what the are good at.

We were at the tennis ball throw event and there were four kids that were participating. We were cheering for them, and yelling their names. It hit me that two of them, had no idea there was anyone aroun them. Even though we were saying their names, giving them instruction in what to do they were too busy rocking, hand flapping and lookin into space to realize any f it.

I thought to myself- Autism sucks. These boys have no idea the world around them is happening. Do they know I am proud of them? Do they know that I will love them if they throw the ball 2 inches of 20 feet? They have no idea of winning is or competition.

Since I have also had some kids that are getting closer and closer to aging out and will be moving into adult programs, I have been thinking about what I want for them.

--To be healthy and safe
--To know they are special, have a purpose and know they are alive for a reason
--To reach their full potential

This isn't all I want for them, but it is the main points. Maybe it is better that they don't realize the world around them. This way they have no idea that there is hurt or pain in the world. They don't realize that people are suffering and they don't realize that they are without. All the sees is the here and now, there are no worries about the future or what they will do with their lives.

I guess I need to learn from them.

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34